Void

It was hard to start when you have essentially nothing. After forcing yourself to try and putting in best random guesses for a long time, you notice things starting to take shape. Guidelines surface and then all of a sudden you have a vision of what things should be like and all you need to do is to fill out the details. Then it becomes tedious and you burn out. Then you struggle a bit more to polish things, give up, find excuses for leaving behind all the imperfection and move on.